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today i found out that someone i care about has been lying to me.

continuously.

at first i thought it could still be fixed.

but then now certain things are suddenly falling into place, certain other things are suddenly making sense, and i realise, too late, probably,

what an idiot i've been.

what a waste of four years of trying to fix things, four years of tears, and pain, and emotional torture, it just keeps happening over and over again. how many chances am i supposed to give?

if you're reading this, and you know it's you i'm talking about, please,

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how anti-climatic, but i don't even know what to do or say, anymore. i keep typing something, then changing it, then changing it again. when i finally figure that blank out, i'll fill it in.

fucking wish i was an emotionless bitch, then maybe i would feel no pain.