are you on lookbook?

outfit from day out with baby.
i love shoulderpads!

http://lookbook.nu/look/291633-IT-S-A-SHOULDER-PADDED-PAPER-SHREDDED-MAD-HATTERED-WORLD

add if you're on lookbook and i'll add you back! the world is too small to not share the fash love. plus i am like lonely there? sobz.

holy f how annoying is the sobz thing hahahahha.

♥ ♥ ♥
xoxo,
j.

NO I HAVE NOT ABANDONED.

HELLOOOOOOOO.

omg i am the worst i know. just that with everything happening all at once, being busy either a) casting, b) working, or c) waiting for my effing hair to dry because now that it's blonde it takes like sixty gadzillion yearszzzz.

oh, right, i finally went blonde. hahahaha.
i know, instant thoughts of ah lian-ness. i'm too lazy to document the process, but it's been a crazy, psychotic ride, i just didn't know how to post it up without having gone through the last three weeks of blonde madness to really determine how i feel about it.

anyways, so far, i'm loving it. haha. it's different and every morning i wake up and forget and am like whoaaaaa. but highly entertaining. if you're on my facebook, you've probably already seen photos, but if you're not, here are some, um, outings with the blonde hair.

here is a nice, majorly cropped out photo with my nice braid so you'll think it's to gently ease you into the visual joke that is my hair.

okay here are the rest of the photos. don't kill yourselves from laughing please. haha. im just going to post as normal events and stuff so you'll be, er, less surprised.


PAUL VAN DYK

went with my dearest jac! seeing her again tomorrow yay. soup spoon woman!


with sally!


summer!


braid somehow went to the back. short blonde scraggly hair. hahaha.

Mediacorp Charity Car Wash

the girls raised $1,731 for charity! :) hooray. although we lost to the polo boys (technically plus adrian pang, claire jedrek and michelle chia okay! who can say no to michelle chia, she is such love please. ) by thirty plus dollars. DAMNIT. HAHAHA. i don't quite have many pictures, but here's a priceless one of corde with our cardboard sign. haha.

if you want to check out more pictures of the entire event, head to matt.sg . he's super nice! :)




CHIVAS REGAL FULL FRONTAL EVENT

worked with corde again! they called us back to do this event as well, why do they have such awesome props! haha gave out cardboard cameras and popcorn hats, and took photos with these crazy assed awesome props.






no idea wtf we're doing here. hahaha.

stayed for the afterparty, bumped into qiaoying, omg i love this picture can.

RANDOM CASTING
hello here is my wig! hahahaha.

demure picture with wig on.


with eddie!


love you babe!

ANYWAYS HER NAME IS MUFFY.

i know she needs to be combed lah.

but her popularity is so amazing see.

lov! hahaha


corde! totally different!

ASIAN POKER SHOWDOWN
the first of it's kind in asia! working with muffy on. haha how dysfunctional does that sound.

models. familiar faces! youll recognise assumpta, corde, veriza and valentane.


with claire, host to the show

and the most massive post saved for last,

KAR'S ELECTRIC TWENTY FIRST!

happy birthday again love!


awesome cupcake cakes.


i chope. hahaha.


more cake!
cons of blonde hair: literally fading into the background.


love! + awesome skirt please.


fab people + drinks = great party.






cynwell kept attacking sab with his laptop case. she finally agreed to pose for a photo. hahahahah.


more attacking going on. same attacker, different victim. haha.


k with her calvin! <3 href="http://s618.photobucket.com/albums/tt264/jaiyeinblack/?action=view&current=KBIRTHDAY.jpg" target="_blank">
happy birthday again, love, hope your year is oh so awesome. :)


random gaga hair test.

if you're curious as to why i'm blonde. haha. i've always wanted to do it, just that it's always been a matter of omg it's going to be damn ex to maintain, school, and it's hard to book jobs with blonde hair. but the kind people at hoyu whom i did a show for are currently covering my hair colour and products for a year, and I HAVE A WIG NOW YAYY HAHAHAHA.

so. technically it's all settled. haha.

DONT CALL ME XIAXUE PLEASEEE. I LOVE HER TO BITS AND I LOVE HER HAIR BUT I WILL KILL YOUUUUU. BE NICE AND I'LL POST HALLOWEEN PICTURES AS LADY GAGA (DUH WHY WASTE THE HAIR, NO? HAHA.)

ok to be honest actually i'm just waiting for the rest of the halloween pictures from kar before posting the whole crazy experience. haha. but i like to blackmail, okay.

anyways, i'm addicted to polls and i just found this pretty + awesome multi-coloured poll maker!also i want to cheat you with nice colours into telling me the truth. hahahaha. so click click!

What do you honestly think of my new blonde hair? hahaha.

Loving it! It's much nicer than your black/brown one, surprisingly.

Holy omgwtf, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING! i need some time to get used to it before i decide.

NO. NO, NO, NO.

i keep thinking xiaxue, sorryyyyyyyy.

i like you with muffy the wig on better actually!

uggs

thank you for being honest! haha.don't worry its anonymoussss.

im off to bed now, hope the long long long long post makes up for my extended break/ hiatus? :))

<3
xoxo,
j.

today i found out that someone i care about has been lying to me.

continuously.

at first i thought it could still be fixed.

but then now certain things are suddenly falling into place, certain other things are suddenly making sense, and i realise, too late, probably,

what an idiot i've been.

what a waste of four years of trying to fix things, four years of tears, and pain, and emotional torture, it just keeps happening over and over again. how many chances am i supposed to give?

if you're reading this, and you know it's you i'm talking about, please,

________________________________________________________________ .


how anti-climatic, but i don't even know what to do or say, anymore. i keep typing something, then changing it, then changing it again. when i finally figure that blank out, i'll fill it in.

fucking wish i was an emotionless bitch, then maybe i would feel no pain.

happy twenty first babe!

i know, my photoshop text is awesomezzzz. hahahahah.

prepping for hoyu hair show!

doing a hairshow for hoyu on wednesday, so did my prep today. uploaded halfway to photobucket then somehow the page hung and server crashed, so it's all gone! -wails. why do things like that always happen to me, gah. i have crazy hair colour now, though. im going to attempt to upload it and then play one level of cockadoodle inc and if it's not done by then im going to bed, haha.

x love and i went to a|x a while back and i bought an awesome duffel like finally!

i love sales. i wanted to get the one with the gloss monograms, but then x said there were no long straps, which made sense since it was for holidays anyways. so i got this one! and so did x. which is very unlike us but i convinced him it would complete his life as it would complete mine. haha. brought it on the singtel bintan trip! :)

anyways.

i broke all public transport records today! determined not to waste my money on cabs anymore because it's like three hundred plus a month wasted! and i want to revamp my room = new furniture! which i have to proudly sponsor myself. so. i took a grand total of 8 bus rides and 5 train rides today! feels like i've been travelling non stop, sheesh. went for hoyu prep, then audition, then casting, then home, then ikea, then novena, then home.

and im still awake!

found my perfect wardrobe today at ikea, (yes, i love ikea, despite its mass-produced consumerism and shameless marketing ploys for the budget friendly) haha. it's got three doors and midget-friendly. i.e. i don't have to tiptoe to hang my clothes like for my wardrobe now, because yes, i am short as everyone knows. haha.

but but but. i didn't get it in the end because they can't deliver by tomorrow, which is the only day i'm free to assemble it cause am so busy with shows non-stop. i don't know when i'm free next and they can only hold it for five days max for free anyways so i don't mind going again, i love it and the freaking swedish meatballs so much. any excuse to eat it right. so yes, conclusion, i am a cheapo, a greedy pig, and i secretly like to assemble furniture, which is why i love buying ikea furniture, haha. it makes me feel all superhuman and then i have bragging rights to say i built my own wardrobe, okay.

random, because it's done uploading, what i wore recently-ish, or in general, just that i'm always too lazy to take outfit pictures/ x always sulks and complains when he has to help me take outfit pictures, and i'm too lazy to make it up to him after, haha.

shades by saints and sailors, leather jacket from topshop,
dress from aa, shoes, vintage.

have since lost shades, which sucks balls. my favourite pair! :(


oooh. hair prep pictures are done.

happily camwhoring with my "old" ish hair whilst waiting for my stylist


then sulking cause it occurs to me that i will actually miss my oldish hair just when i finally managed to achieve manageable hair/grown-out fringe! :(


darling mich in her cleopatra outfit haha.


camera shy!


when left alone, camwhore.


pink aluminium strips! i'm not a fan of pink, but this is pretty rad.


hoyu studio/makeshift setup and busy busy stylists




done! my stylist back for "before" photos then off for a wash.

and.....


ta-dah! mad streaks. somehow the one strand in front is really, really blonde. hahaha.


attempts at jap look = epic fail. evidence that i was obviously not a harajuku girl in my past life, sadly. haha.

anyways, went for casting later and guess who i bumped into?

:) jas! my darling sister.

much love.

okay am off to finish my game, and then sleep.

xoxo,
j.

omg.

i haven't posted in a month! i admit, i am a horrible person.

if you're wondering what i've been up to, it's been nothing but singtel, f1, and more work madness, haha.

but working on a couple of other events now, just finished the media corp festival tonight.

exhausted! haven't had a moment of rest in quite a while.

but on the bright side,

#1) fhm october issue is out! i am technically obligated to tell you all that i am in it. hahaha. if you are curious, get it. here is a sneak preview.

i know, the resolution is AWFUL. i admit, i ripped them off a generic email. haha. eeps. to be honest, i am actually embarassed by it.

#2) will be updating with photos soon. to remind myself:

a. singtel random event photos
b. f1 day grid girl photos
c. singtel pageant day behind the scenes photos
d. photos (MASSIVE!) from milan trip with jac for filming of sgg on tour
e. mediacorp festival today
f. yes, those damned tioman/starwars party photos.

damnit, my photobucket will explode.

doing two runway shows this coming week, though. so freaking exhausted with fittings and stuff. ahhhhh. too bad i love it so much. will someone please get me a nicer camera! everything is so far coming out blur. so i have less photos to share. UGH.

xoxo,
j.

p.s. freaking addicted to cockadoodle inc. on the iphone! freaking retarded and awesome management game. i love time management games. that makes me such a sad loser, but it's true. hahahah. love you bitches!

p.p.s. also thinking of changing my blog header. i am a lazy person, so i only made two. which do you prefer?

A.

or

B.

Take a poll! either because you are bothered, or because you have nothing better to do. hahahah.

Which of the above pictures do you think is more awesome for my new blog header?
	A.
	B.
	The current one should stay, even though it is a blur piece of crap taken in the bus
	I can't decide, they are both freaking awesome! (i know, i am damn thick skinned hahahahah.)
pollcode.com free polls

i've been everywhere but here.

i'm addicted to the hello kitty rings from macs. i know i'm probably the slowest person alive to know about them, so to make up for them i purchased two in one day. you know, just in case i lose the first one.

hooray, i heart kitty rings. extremely retarded but big = awesome.

can't remember if i mentioned this before, but i finally found my contacts after they were lost in my room for the longest time.

Finally, finally updated my singtel blog again. five posts at one shot at seven am in the morning. knock yourselves out, haha.

http://www.singtelrace.com/GridGirls_Blog.aspx/jessebella


xoxo,
j.