i need a haircut.

i'll get it done soon. gahhhh.

anyways i ate rubbish cake yesterday. this eating thing is getting WAY out of hand, over the last three days i've had chips, cake, cookies, peanuts (damnit bloody peanuts and sore throat!), all manner of fried objects, biscuits, and hotdogs.

omggggg.

but anyways it's still been a v happy eating week. hahaha. diet and haircut soon! (absolutely no link between the two, i know, but WELL.)

anyways went to a random park yesterday after hanging out at x's place.

guess where? haha

yay nice background!


random cake obsessive photos from yesterday, because yes, cake related photos are so interesting, mind blowing, and addictive: (haha)

my chocolate cake! as you can tell from the obvious and absolutely retarded fact that the plastic wrapper is on upside down, that we were having a cheapskate day out, and the cake expectedly isn't going to be that fantastic :(((

by the way, not to be mean, but it tastes les horribles. don't buy it if you see it. i was conned by the super cute star on the top, because obviously i am such a retard.
:((((((

BEFORE I GOT CONNED AND MY HAPPY AND EXPECTANT FACE, DAMNIT.


yumyumyum (or so i thought :(((( )


anticipated cake orgasm that never came.

GAH. okay i'm such a sulky retard but i love food and i hate it when food lies when it looks good! and i was craving for chocolate cake. it's like buying a chanel only to find out its actually a charnel, or buying a lamborghini only to discover it's only got a two cylinder. okay, i'm so mean but i'm still upset and whiny! GAHHHH. serves me right.

hmph.


ohoh, on another funnier and random note. this like, eleven year old boy came up to me yesterday and said (in mandarin): "hello. my friend wants your number. can give?" and i was like thinking wtffff do i look like a paedophile to you but instead i gave him this omgwtf face and said "omg are you serious? bu ke yi!!!!!". only later then i realised that okay benefit of the doubt maybe his friend isn't his age, granted im laggy and retarded, BUT STILL! SO WEIRD. imagine if a kid came up to you and asked for your number. shudders.

so lesson of the day: never ask your kid brother/sister/friend to help you get a guy/girl's number. no matter how cute they might be, or how adorable you think the other person will think of you. because the person might be as nehneh as i am, and assume you're a kid as well. hahahaha. okay don't know what kind of lesson that is, and im really the last person on earth to be giving life lessons, but it's a valid lesson, okay! hahaha.

xoxo,
j

p.s. im gonna upload more photos of the fhm finals soon! just that all my files are so messy and photobucket takes ten gadzillion thousand trillion years to upload.

flex-e-bee-lee-tee,

this from a while back.

credits to the amazing bryan kit f.

sorry i haven't updated, ive just spent the last few days being majorly pissed off. i hate people who think they have the right to take advantage, and the asshole who just takes me for granted. i am just SO sick of it, im sick of empty promises,of people who sell out, of fearing that i will, of worrying, of being so empty and yet full of ennui.

basically i just needed some space, and i haven't gotten it, and i need it more than ever. i just need to head overseas and chill out for a bit.

case in point. went to fish and co yesterday for dinner. peri peri catch which was as usual amazing, but the company wasn't.

yes, i was semi fed up.

but the food was yum, and i was so hungry i finished it all up.
(yes, i eat/ate with all three cutlery)

seriously, it just spoilt the whole meal. this is why so far i've kept to fishing with only one person.

it was planned as my treat out for us, but all i got were endless insults and hidden jibes and mean comments, i'm just so tired. i don't expect gratitude and appreciation, but itd be nice if it was at least pleasant.

anyways on a brighter note, i got a package! :) from my dearest friend who means the world to me, and always will. sucks balls that she's so far away.

it's huge! i had to lean all the way back just to get this shot.

this is really one of the nicest presents i've gotten because so much effort was put into it. not to mention its epic awesomeness. kp im going to wear it all the time!

forgive me for not dropping more shots of what it is, but i'd like to keep it to myself for just a little while.

going to catch some gossip girl, then drop b a message before i sleep.

xoxo,
j.


p.s. you know how you randomly miss a person out of your past that for certain reasons you ceased contact with? im in that state now, and it's strange because i haven't in a long while. i was just watchine season two and it was that whole state with nate's comfortability, and chuck's electricity, and it's not that easy to make a choice. i've been there, and the truth was the whole chuck thing was just too intense and it blew up in our faces. i regret not waiting, but there you go. life and it's warped sense of humour.

p.p.s. yes, i know it's quite pathetic that i'm comparing and identifying my life with a soap opera.

p.p.p.s. hence since you are full of undying pity and concern for the state of my mentality, you should vote. fhm1 gnd10 name nric email to 73388.

p.p.p.p.s. yes, i am also shameless.


love you, bitches. kisses all around
j..

wine and chocolates are the sex.

omg wine and chocolates are the ultimate love.

chocolates from chocz! SO PRETTY. too pretty to eat, actually. my favourite's the one with the sugar flowers. small box ones are for alcoholics.

my happy happy face. haha. though such a blurry shot from my phone.

okay long day, exhausted. bye.

xoxo, j.

omg i have so many things to catch up on. and im major exhausted. like, 7-hours-of-sleep-over-the last-three-days exhausted. re: beerfest, supper, sleep x 3 hours, 'exam', eight hour shoot (in some mosquito infested jungle place = million bites to deal with), dinner, arguments, more beer, sleep x 4 hours, casting, furniture shopping.

see my tired ass face from yesterday. i look like an aunty hahahaha. and my chunli meets grunge hair from the shoot.





audition/casting for singtel today! definitely wasn't my best shot, i was supremely frazzled and kept rattling on. never expected such a huge panel of judges (like, twenty?!) omfgwtf was i doing, basically. so nervous and stoned simultaneously. hahaha. im just crossing my fingers like madly that crazy is the new xfactor. haha.

anyways, met jeanine, then shumin, abby, bumped into fiona, coincidentally met sindy, and cheryl (i think?) this insanely tall model. major fantastic. seems like everyone's up for it this year.

anyways moment of self-indulgent whining please.
IM SO SHORTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((




:(

anyways halfway through the thing i had a craving for ikea meatballs, so i called x and we just randomly went. so damned far away but SO worth it.


meatballs and baked chicken!

and awesome time furniture shopping! or pretending/planning what to reward myself with when i finally clear my room. anyways because i can't ever resist ikea. i bought a new bin (clear so i can doodle on it!) and a weighing machine so i can scare myself into losing weight. = no more meatballs.


shoeboxes all over the place from digging for shoes for shoots. time to spring clean.

yay everything is white! i've decided that i'd like a white room. like a freaky, clinical room. the moment will probably pass in another three days, but im obsessed with the concept after watching horsemen. which, by the way, you should definitely watch if you're into psychological thrillers and studies of the human psyche. it's really intelligent, (although gory, avoid eating during the first half), and i effing loved it. directors need to make more shows like these. okay enough before i lapse into potential spoilers.

okay damn bloody tired, exam on tuesday, so im taking a hiatus.